It Ain't Easy Being (Gluten) Free

I've jumped back and forth quite a few times between being completely gluten free and then having gluten. I like to pretend that I eventually get used to the level of gluten in my body but I think my body just eventually habituates itself and gives up. When it gets to the point it gives up I stop bloating in target areas (stomach/bowels) and just feel massive and swollen everywhere. I know I've had too much when my neck feels like I've suddenly donned a tight (but not troublingly so) turtleneck. It's unpleasant. Unfortunately the only thing to be done about it is to stay away from it...but that will take time to adjust to. Not eating it is easy enough, but bumping into it at restaurants, on wooden cooking utensils and when baking or preparing food for others it just completely undoes  me.
Reasons why I MUST quit playing with gluten:

1) Feeling massive. I feel easily two sizes bigger because of internal swelling - even if I look the same on the outside. This leads to body image issues which I am trying, desperately, to fix.
2) Depression. I give up easily, I lose faith easily, and I am exhausted. Plays into Reason #1.
3) Bloating. My stomach extends painfully and I get some really nasty side effects.
4) Joint pain. It feels like I have rheumatoid arthritis.
5) Lack of focus. I forget how to spell simple words, need things repeated, am less aware and get lost/confused easily.

My workout today was a good one. I did a 35 minute run with Kevin on the Precor machine that combines elliptical motion with stair stepping - depending on your stride you work different leg muscle groups.  After that we did an upper-body circuit, however because I'm stiff and swollen I wasn't as up to the task as I was the other day, which was pre-breadmaking followed by subsequent glutening. We managed to get a few laps in the pool and then had a 15 minute soak in the hot spa tub. Followed that up with some protein-enriched smoothies and then home for some video games. Due to my swollen hands I wasn't able to keep gaming, and started feeling progressively worse the longer I had to keep my hands clenched in "gamer position". Reason number 6 to stop the glutening: I can't play World of Warcraft >_>;